1 Year…

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When I started my blog, it was initially meant as a means for me to have a little space on the internet where I could word vomit whatever was clogging up my brain at certain points in my life. I was sat in my exceptionally tiny university room, probably trying to avoid writing an essay, when I decided to bite the bullet, to take the plunge. For want of a better phrase, I grew some balls and published my first blog post. I can still remember the thoughts that ran through my head as soon as I’d clicked the ‘Publish’ button; I’m pretty sure they went something like this: Shit. Oh dear. Georgia, what have you done? Take it back, take it back, take it back. Buuuuut, your gal persevered and I couldn’t be happier.

The amount of support I’ve received is absolutely crazy: I’ve had people that I have never met sending me messages about how much they love reading my rambly words and weird opinions. To me, this is kind of incomprehensible as I’m just a massively uncool, sarcastic 19-year-old who laughs her way through life. Even the very idea that people read my blog for actual enjoyment makes no sense to me. When I first started out, I thought my readers would consist entirely of my friends who felt obliged to read what I was writing and although I know this is most definitely the case (big thanks to all my pals – you are angels and I appreciate you reading about my haircare routine when I know you really could not care less), there are also so many people reading across the entire WORLD. I have people reading my blog in THAILAND???!! I mean whaaaaat???

One of my first posts was called “Being Happy” where I outlined how important I felt it was for me to explore who I was at the time and who I could potentially be in the future, if I was brave enough to stop caring about what other people thought of me. A huge part of this was publicising my blog in the first place. Not many people know that I actually had an anonymous blog for around 2 years prior to starting ‘georgiaheaselgrave.com’ and was reluctant to tell anybody about it due to the fear of what people might think. If you followed my blog last year, you’ll know that I tried really hard to overcome this fear. Moving to university has really helped with my own self-confidence and self-belief and has given me the opportunity to explore who I want to be. Blogging has become a big part of my life and I couldn’t be happier that I took the leap and made it public.

I just wanted to say a massive thank you to every single person who has read any one or all of my posts. Without you, I would most likely not be blogging anymore and would have shed serious tears over the fact that my Mom was my only reader (lol, love you Mom).

Happy 1st birthday to my little blog!! I look forward to rambling excessively for many more years to come.

All the love,

G X

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Hello 2018!

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The end of 2017 was celebrated with my best friend, large amounts of champagne and rounded off with a huge portion of chips. I couldn’t have asked for a more perfect end to what has been an emotionally draining, yet emotionally rewarding, year. 2017 saw tears…LOTS of tears, both happy and sad. It also saw a whole lot of laughter and joy that I can only put down to the lovely people I have in my life. I’ve learned a lot about myself and how I handle certain situations and I have to say, I think I’ve kicked ass this year!!

There are many things I wish I had done, or hadn’t done. But each tiny moment pieced together to make the whirlwind of crazy that was my 2017.

It’s been a pretty hard year emotionally for me.

I’ve had my heart broken; I’ve had to learn to pick up the pieces and glue them back together. I’ve struggled severely with home sickness. I’ve doubted myself when I should have believed in myself. I’ve started new things and failed (I mean, just look at my Blogmas attempt!!). I’ve worked hard and received no reward. My kindness has been taken for weakness. I’ve felt insecure. I’ve taken risks that haven’t paid off.  I’ve struggled in discovering who I am and what path I should take. I’ve had to make ‘adult’ decisions that I’m definitely not ready to have made.

But, I’ve also lived. I’ve made so many memories that will stay with me for a very long time. I’ve travelled with my friends. I’ve revisited a dream role of mine. I’ve sang my heart out to hundreds of people. I’ve watched my friends grow and achieve things that make me so proud to call them friends. I’ve pretty much watched every single series on Netflix (yes, I am classing that as an achievement). I’ve dabbled in this thing called ‘adulting’, but the jury is still out on that one. I’ve put time into improving my blog and have been rewarded by a growing following. I’ve learnt the value of having true and honest friends that will always have your back no matter what. I’ve met some of my absolute, honest-to-God idols. I’ve thrived in environments that (excuse my language) scared the living shit out of me at first glance…and second.

My New Year’s Resolution is to keep growing. Not in the physical sense (that ship has most definitely sailed) but emotionally and mentally. I want to be challenged, I want to challenge. I want to fail just so I can get back up and try again. I want to laugh so hard my sides feel like they’re splitting apart and my heart feels like it might escape my chest. I want to achieve things I never thought possible. I want to be surrounded by so much love and positivity that I won’t remember the last time I cried.

I want 2018 to be my year.

Lots of love,

G X